Am I really two weeks away from returning to work? For real?!
These last 10 weeks went WAY too fast for my liking and if you ask my husband, he’ll tell you I’m not about to get over that fact any time soon. The tears have fallen on more than one occasion for reasons that often contradict each other.
I have loved the chance to spend this precious time with my baby, but it’s not nearly enough. I didn’t take enough pictures. I didn’t stay caught up to her baby album or even hang the bookshelves in her nursery. Sleep and snuggles always came first. I’m not the mother I thought I’d be at this point…and now she has to spend so much of her day away starting in two weeks. Ugh. I already miss her and she’s not even there yet!
Right now she won’t consistently take a bottle of breast milk. I’m pretty sure we’ve got a case of bottle-nipple confusion vs. rejection of the bottle altogether, so I’m hopeful that we can get this resolved in time for daycare.
We’re trying 4 different bottles at the moment and a 5th is on its way from Amazon. She’s taken all 4 bottles at least once for at least an ounce but for whatever reason she’s not consistent about it. Yesterday, I tried the Playtex Nurser and while she was happy as can be while trying it out, she wouldn’t suck! Later in the day, I tried the Philips Avent Classic+ and she didn’t take it at first, but then later she took it with no problem at all. We’re so confused!
I’m hopeful she’ll take a bottle at daycare when she needs to, but we’ll be in mega training mode next week during our visit to see both of our families in the Midwest! I have a backup plan that isn’t too detrimental to my time if she doesn’t take the bottle at daycare. That said, I know this is just a small blip in our nursing relationship and Dagny will only need me like this for so long.
How can anyone resist a face such as hers when she’s trying so hard to understand why I’m handing her a toy filled with milk!